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date: Jan 27, 2008
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time: 10:50 PM
soccer again today.versus a team of uncles. we lost 3-1. but hey. guess who scored that only goal for the team. me. thanks to joel. then afiq. then yazid. at least i scored a goal today. the only goal for the team today. suckaz. presentations and reports. and programming. when can i get it done. good question. simple answer. i do not know. 18 days to go. anybody want to be my date. been thinking about loads of things from just now. wondering and pondering. what to do. cheers. *the paper roses are wilting everyday date:
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time: 2:37 AM
"Our scene begins as a telephone rings, She chokes a gasp at the awful news it brings, A phone call she's been avoiding, She knows he's reached the end. Hooked up to the respirator, It breathes life into my calloused lungs, My heart beats getting fainter, I know my time has come. It's getting colder been trying to show her, That I'm not the one to be there beside her now, I'm crossing over can no one console her? Alone she'll remain, With no way to end this pain. Now I realize the things that I, The things that I have done to her, Why you gave your love with all your heart, With all that a heart can give. Intentions that you'll never know, The reason why I had to lead astray, I gave you a lifetime of pain and remorse, Mistakes that were never yours, The wrong in my life can never be right, It flashes before my eyes. How did it come to this? His mind is working harder than before, His last thoughts of her, Of how he and he alone, Had destroyed the once vibrant spirit, That he had coveted so deeply, The last pain he ever causes the only woman, Who ever loved him. Bright light is calling me upward, I follow and leave you below, Now you're all alone And I leave you with nobody by your side, Not to hurt you ever again, Never break your spirit for me, Now I'm all alone, Still I cherish the things that you've given to me, The bright light is calling me upward, I follow and leave you below." the lyrics to the song on my blog. things arent so beautiful now by a thorn for every heart. just scan through the lyrics. and some what describes the past the love the memories. relax people. i am not getting emo or anything like that. not like that guy. which brings me to another topic. i need to get new pairs of shoes. cos when i saw hafizul wearing the exact same pair of shoes as me in school. i seriously felt like dragging his sorry ass out of mac. removing his shoes. and just throw them into the fountain nearby. after i am done stepping on them that is. maybe a little spit will do. damn him. he gave the most stupid, no-brainer excuse i have ever heard. 'oh, never see you wear before'. are you blind dufus. i have worn those shoes everyday ever since i got them. and you say you had never seen me in those shoes before. stop being a poser dude. get a life. get your own style. sheesh. on a brighter note. or is it a lighter note. anyway. went to lepak with dhil, zid and fiz. i was from rizz's place with zid finishing up some 'important matters'. and its finally done. supposed to be doing my programming project. but when it comes to lepak-ing with them at blue light. who would not say no. suckaz. smile always girl. keep maintaining that sweet smile of yours. put everything about him aside and stand tall. do not let this affect you much more. move on and stay happy. cheers. *and then there was light shining on you in the darkness date: Jan 25, 2008
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time: 1:10 AM
tiring is the best word to describe today.played floorball today. and its been awhile since i perspire that much. truthfully. i miss perspiring that much. you may find it disgusting. but i miss doing intense sports. and trust me. floorball is no kids play. sticks flying everywhere. ball rolling to nowhere. at least we got three points from the competition. it was a fun experience. cockroach or what. lepak with zai at mccafe at wheelock's place. before that we were at raffles place. having a good time there. isnt that right zai. dhil met up with us after work at mccafe. just lepak and smoke and lepak and talk. paper roses. just serviettes shaped into a flower. lets spread the love with paper roses. she totally has the sweetest smile. can i get to know you better. and maybe flood you with more paper roses. adding to the two i gave you at sports hall. hope to see you in school again. =] i need to run again. i miss running. i really want my stamina back. anybody care to join me. *maybe you. cheers. date: Jan 23, 2008
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time: 1:26 AM
'short stories with tragic endings'.love that song. though most of you wont. cos its a screamo song. but love the title the most. so much meaning in that title. what goes around comes around. mine just did i guess. but hey. told myself its going to happen sooner or later. stay happy ever after you two. and like what hasbi said. my 'what goes around comes around' has already happened. well most of it. so i should be more relax and enjoy life. well. who isnt enjoying life right now in poly. once again. its time to go fishing. damn syamim. i really do not know when to settle down. but hey. i am currently experiencing poly life. what do you expect. thank god for the school's mac. suckaz. cheers. 1.jpg) *charred paper rose just for me, myself and i. date: Jan 22, 2008
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time: 2:42 PM
things have been settled out.those reading my tagboard. the tension is there. but everything has been settled. i have talked to her. and she has talked to me. so let it be that way. what goes around comes around. whatever i did to her will surely come back and bite me back right. yeah you were right. it came sooner than i expected. it did not exactly happened to me. but what the heck. besides. what do you expect when she is already attached. i am happy for both of you. hope you two really settle down and be happy always. keep the paper roses and plastic hearts. its for you from a good friend. think of it that way. smile always gerll. cheers. *i will still be waiting for you though. date: Jan 21, 2008
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time: 11:28 PM
tonight the sky was beautiful.moonlight shining through the clouds. such a wonderful sight. wish i was with you to watch together. seriously. i am missing your messages. missing you. hope you are doing alright. oh liana. you say save the paper roses for my dream girl. yes i am saving those special ones. because i truly made it with feelings. but those i make for my friends. its just a serviette made into a flower. i gave it to your friends before. i gave it to strangers before. i even was forced to give because of a dare. so why are you being so touchy about it. take it as a tissue paper shaped into a rose. now i can say i tried to patch things up as a friend. but you simply rejected it. your lost. cheers. date:
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time: 8:19 AM
good morning inhabitants of the world.i am currently in school. so what you may say. well i finally made it to school early. and to think i slept at 5am. i was finally early for the first time for a class. but when i came to school. found out the 8am lecture was canceled. can you say what the hell with me. but its a beautiful morning. everybody is so cheery and smiling. to think its monday. aka monday blues. but bump into rya, haikal, fatin and one guy from fatin's class that i still-do-not-know-his-name. maybe its only during the morning period everybody is so happy. wait till a few lessons are over. everybody would start complaining. anyway. in mac right now. cant wait for 12pm. lunchdate anybody. cheers. date:
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time: 1:17 AM
i just realized.its just 1.24am. i went to bed so early. damn. waiting for pai tao's friend to come online. if she wakes up later. cheers. date: Jan 20, 2008
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time: 10:42 PM
great great great day i had today.'doing project with a schoolmate which turns into a date'. let this be short and sweet. she looked great today. and by night. i dont know what the moonlight did to her. but she looked b-e-a-utiful when the moonlight shines on her. isit cool or what. cheers. suckaz. *i may need more serviettes and straws to contain those feelings in them for you -* date:
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time: 12:44 AM
tired tired tired.not from projects and reports. but from playing soccer just now. damn tired i can say. played with my secondary schoolmates and the mcg guys. lost, damn badly. but at least i scored a goal. suckaz. yesterday went to lepak again. almost the whole gang was there. except one or two. and a new addition to the group also. she skipped class just to lepak with us. naughty eh. thanks to me though. lepak at blue light. super windy that night. smoked and talked the night away. till next lepak session. tried laughing gas today. you know that stuff that is banned in singapore. can only be used here for medical purposes. well dhil had one can to cater his swelling knee. what more fiq rizz zid and me try it out. i tell you. you totally cant stop laughing for a good two minutes. it was damn fun. but please kids. its illegal to inhale stuff. dont try that at home. maybe outside but not at home. till next time. cant wait for monday's lunch date with pai tao's friend. cheers. *straw hearts and tissue roses specially made with meanings just for you... date: Jan 17, 2008
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time: 2:00 AM
"what goes around comes around".i know that. i am expecting that. cause hey. i too have mess up a lot of things recently. but lets weigh and see whose life is more fucked up. what goes around comes around. karma. it may gonna bite me on my ass. or kick me in the nuts. but i am expecting it. i am not worried. i am just waiting. i am still waiting to have a chance to talk to you. joke of the year you say. its only the first month of 2008. trust me. the biggest joke of the year is yet to come. my bad for getting the facts wrong. but the way you told me the first time round. you said it like you were forced to leave home. but its my fault i did not get the facts right. just do not smoke. bad influence to your niece. ugly and fat. stop complaining girls and do something about it. exercise, healthy diets and a balanced lifestyle. that is the way to go. be more positive. and be more mindful about what you say. people listen, read and hear. and they might just get hurt by what you say. treasure, be grateful and be appreciative of what you have. of what god gave you. because life is short. make use of that life wisely and properly. cheers. date: Jan 6, 2008
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time: 3:03 AM
5 days have went by since the new year.and things all around are already being stirred up. "this world will never be what i expected" line taken from three days grace's song, never too late. the world that i am currently living in right now is never at peace. especially right in front of me. breakups. quarrels. fights. running away from home. spending unwisely. backstabbing. lastly, my most favourite of all. show offs. i am not describing my life. its yours & yours & yours that i am talking about. i went to slack with the usual bunch of guys, & girl. at blue light, which was a damn cool place. if it wasnt for the security guards. just sat down, smoke, eat & talk. truthfully. what am i going to do when this bunch of guys graduate. i have been repeating that again & again. but it has always kept me thinking. its my choice to distance myself from them. when i have finally found the perfect bunch of friends after 17 years of my life. they have to graduate. i know i could still meet up with you guys. but not always too right. oh well. i wonder what the future has in store for us. can i just be a spectator from now on & just observe everybody. i just want to sit down & enjoy the free show. like the new batch of students coming in. like the next selection of committee members. like the forming of new relationships. like the backstabbing occurring. like the vulgarities being uttered for fun, joy & laughter. like the showing off glamour. like the hurting of feelings without knowing it. like the vibes of coolness shown. like the childishness ever-flowing. like the formation of groups among each other. like the crumble of a club. who am i to say this things. who am i you say. i am muhammad syamim bin norman, the guy who spoke up & debated to everything. please dont bring down the club name that is already well established. bring the name up for the better. this new year. i am totally going to shut up & just observe. observe till i think its the right time to open up. till then. please do the right thing. quote of the day. "sumpah aku terror". translate to "i swear i am the best". quote from a friend. that quote is for those who feel that way. my opinion. stop acting "terror" & be a normal human being. my new year has been going damn well so far. i think 2008 is going to be a great year. too soon to say. but i just have that gut feeling its going to be awesome. thanks guys, & girl for everything. especially the cigarettes, thanks girl. till my next post entry. live hard, play hard. but think smart too. dont be a sucker, suckaz, cheers. Labels: crumble of andayu date: Jan 1, 2008
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time: 5:39 PM
2008.wow. how 2007 flies past so quickly. a new year. as usual, a new beginning. just reach home from celebration of the new year. went to east coast park with the betara karisma guys, 10 of them to be precise. and boy what a celebration. entertainments. by a percussion group from republic poly. by afiq's adik sedara. by the atmosphere there. went overnight cycling with them too. from east coast to changi village and back. went changi village just to get drinks. so much for eating there. thanks yazid for suggesting. accidents happened too. our own accidents that is. when cycling, try to always look straight. if not, you will end up like zai and idris. both looking left and right and didnt see each other. bam, collision happened. when cycling, try not to cycle exactly behind another cyclist. if not, you will end up like hairi and jamal. cycled too close to rizz's back tire. bam, collision happened. lastly, when cycling, please refrain from using the phone. please park one side to use the phone. if not, you will end up like yazid. thrown off from his bike when afiq stopped suddenly in front of him. bam, collision happened. so the moral of the story. when afiq is around you, riding a bicycle. please take extra precaution. or you will totally have serious injuries. thanks afiq. and lesson learn. dont ever bring 20cents to buy a drink. a sweet girl might pay for you. damn. someone please massage my arse. back to 2008. seriously it is 2008. my resolutions. i have no idea. i guess i just dont believe in resolutions. but i do have a whole load of dedications and look-backs. lets see what has happen in 2007. be it good. or bad. jan- still awaiting for o'level results. working at swensen's funan. a shaky relationship with carrie. feb- singlehood. quit job on valentine's day. received o'level results(17points babe!). mar- most boring month of the year. apr- entered nanyang poly. chose the wrong course. joined malay cultural group. may- entered a wonderful relationship with liana. jun- its either another boring month of the year. or i cant think of any happenings in this month. jul- beloved grandfather passed away.  aug- layar andayu(drunkard me). joined back swensen's at imm. sep- my birthday. two celebrations. loved both. oct- got lead role in eraya production(pak abu's the name). changed course in poly. nov- eraya antarabangsa production a success. my first six months in any relationships. went up the dhl balloon. dec- singlehood. betara karisma achieved second in piala khatulistiwa 07. as you can see. it starts to get more mundane over the months. but ended the year with a bang. or should i say with cramps. dedications next i guess. firstly. i thank god for everything. syukur alhamdulillah. secondly. i apologize if i left out someone here. i still thank them for making my 2007 a blast. lets begin shall we. family- thanks for the love and concern. i know i have not been exactly that ideal son. but i am still grateful that i have my family here. sorry for all my wrong doings. forgive me. dmd0702, sufi and sean- my first poly class from my first course. you guys definitely the most fun batch to be with. full of jokes and laughter. thanks for all the concern when i wanted to change course. i know some of you guys miss me. i miss you guys too. sufi and sean. thanks for being a smoking buddy. my cousins- asyraf, afiq, aidil. thanks for the company. sorry if i have made life difficult for you when i keep sleeping over. and aidil. thanks for the nickname. mim the pimp. ei0701- my current poly class. just would like to say. you guys never fail to crack me up. full of nonsense. mcg- as a whole, thanks mcg for the fun, joy and laughter. -tarian girls you babes are just fun to be and crap around with. -tiqah, zura, wani, ros, raudha, jannah, syimah, phyza, elly, rya, naqya thanks for being great friends. sorry if you have to put up with my nonsense. you girls are simply the best. -fatin surprise i got a dedication just for you. must be honoured. i will always have a listening ear for you. thanks for trusting me and flooding your problems to me. keep on smiling. -meer, khai, farhan, amir, iman you guys just make my stay in mcg the best. -dikir boys betara or what. second place. lets keep this close bond intact and together always. -yan, lala, fadhil, wirna, ky five of you totally helped me a lot when i am in a bad mood. thanks for being really concern. without you guys, i think my temper will explode. thanks too for the extra push. -rizz, zai, afiq three of you are like big brothers to me. pity you guys have to graduate soon. i have a ball of a time hanging with you three. full of nonsense. full of laughter. full of enjoyment. going to miss you guys you dog. -yazid super close to this guy only a month ago. also pity he is in his last year in poly. great friend, like a brother. after graduating must still keep in contact alright. good luck with your studies and her. you know that i know that you know. lets go topman again. -hasbi this guy. got to know him since the day we first met during mcg's orientation. best bro till now. though he always have excuses for not going this and that. and thank god you are in first year. ade member rapat. good luck on your studies and farhana. -liana lastly. the girl who pulled me through during most of 2007. you have been the greatest thing that has ever happen this year. you rock my sock off. thanks for tolerating me. i have learnt to control myself. all thanks to you. i am grateful. with the time we had together. i thank you for that once again. that is all i guess. goodbye 2007. hello 2008. there are many things i want to do. first thing is to ask for her number and a date. till next time. cheers. 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