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date: Feb 28, 2009
title: the endings always the same.
time: 9:55 AM
it has been a while since i last blog. well this post is so called a shout out to everyone i miss. i just have to post it up, and because i am lazy or shy or both to send messages to everyone i miss them. so here goes. i miss my beloved grandfather the most. his laughter, his smile, his smell on the money he gives to his grandchildren, his doa-doa and his presence. oh, i have a manchester united towel used for bathing. guess who bought for me that, my grandfather. god is looking after him now.i miss my grandmother too. she is still alive though, but its been a while since i last visit her. got to go to her place soon. .jpg) i miss redbull. but i am cutting back though. it aint good for your health you know.i miss school. primary, secondary and polytechnic, all are missed. i miss nyp's mcdonalds. i want my big mac please.   speaking of mcdonalds, the first time i met these two girls were at nyp's mcdonalds. both has the same name, jannah, and both are in the same cca. different year and course though. but miss them both equally. and the above jannah, the one with me in yellow shirt, she is my bestfriend. if you are reading this, janjan the elephant is missing you too. make yourself free for the mocca gig okay bestie..jpg) i miss rusdy. he is like a brother to me, helped me pull through during tough times, support me in whatever i do and just a nice person to hang out with. oh, for your info, that is me in the picture, not a girl. i stuffed plastic wrappings into my shirt. suckers. i miss liana too! my once beloved girlfriend, now my beloved good friend. she is just the female version of rusdy, but smaller in size. and when i mean smaller, she is short. dont kill me liana if you read this. though i just met them a few hours back, i miss sufi and fardly. i have known sufi for 2 years and fardly for a couple of months. but put aside on how long i know both of them, they have stood by my side and pulled me up when i was down, especially ever since that day, 14th feb to be precise. thanks guys. i miss jocelyn yan too. okay okay, jo is what she would prefer to be called. i still cant figure out whats wrong in calling her jocelyn. sheesh. anyway, she just turned 19 on the 27th february. happy belated birthday! though i was like the first to wish you on facebook AND on the phone. you owe me something, as i am taking you to night safari. cant wait right, since you started attachments and didnt exactly had a break from school. oh so sad. see you really soon okay. i miss yat, my clubbing buddy. and outside of club, he is a good friend. humble but chaotic at times. he is the only guy that i can really pour out my troubles, happiness, nonsense without him not feeling bored or irritated. but the solutions and answers that he returns can sometimes be kinda isiotic too. ISIOT! i miss this dog tag, because i fucking lost it at the first live n loaded show at mediacorp studios while bodysurfing! and it was given to me by an ex of mine whom we both thought it was love at first sight. she is a nice girl and all, but i guess i was a jerk. sorry hidayah. i miss my shop. it closed down as they found out about my secret "services" that my shop provides during after hours.i miss acting on stage. i miss jamming and screaming for vocals.  ahhhhhhh. ben n jerry's cookie dough is the sex! i want some badly, hadnt had that in months.lastly, i miss everyone who has entered into my life, from the nurses and doctors who delivered me, to the nurses and doctors who circumcised me. to the scandals and flings i had, and the intimate moments we had. from the people that used to bully me, to the people that i used to bully. all of you, i miss you. yes you my dear fellow reader, you too. now i am wondering why the hell i wrote this kind of post. cheers. date: Feb 15, 2009
title: lights will guide you home.
time: 6:05 AM
valentine's day has just passed. it started great, sweet moments in the middle but ended not so good for me. currently, i am right now sitting on my bed, drowning myself with sad, emo songs. no, not any emo bands like that. empty by click five, realisi by colbie caillat, your call by secondhand serenade, life in technicolor by coldplay are just one of the few songs in my current playlist. why am i so down, i will get back to that later. now lets see how it began on the day of love.okay, seriously, valentine's day is actually just another day on the calendar.why was it so important to me because it will be the first time i will be going out with her, just the two o us, without her worrying about her projects. she was late, but i didnt mind. it was a first for me to be early for something for quite some time now. i had no plan at al on what to do that day. when i met her, i present to her, in my eyes, the most beautiful bouquet of roses. she was shocked of cos, but liked it too. since it was early to eat dinner, we headed to starbucks to get some drinks and smoked together. we were at vivocity by the way. i intended to bring her to henderson waves, but in the end we went this beautiful place at keppel bay. and it wasnt even near crowded. i wont tell you guys where, but if you guys happen to discover that place, get ready to be amazed. neither of us brought a camera which was quite a waste. so we sat there till after sunset and proceeded to seah im to eat. yes, seah im, a kopitiam beside harbourfront interchange. my plan was maybe dinner at pizza hut or pastamania. but she being the simple girl she is, said why not seah im and we could save money. after dinner, we headed to powerhouse for awhile, bla bla bla, and both of us decided to leave early. that was when moments start to suck. i just wanted to be with her longer but she had to go home. i am okay with that. after she got into a cab and i proceeded to the busstop, i messaged her i had a great night and wishin her happy valentine's day. the reply that came after that really drowned myself in confussion, sadness and anxiety. she replied "your welcome bro. happy vday. =)". bro? did she reply me bro maybe she was tired and all, as she was talking about her friends cum brothers at keppel bay when we chatted. or is it she really sees me as a bro only? maybe i am expecting, or assuming, too much. but one cant help but to wonder right. and ironically, the song playing now is blurry by puddle of mudd. "everything's so blurry..." i am afraid to ask her, of what she thinks of me as. i need you readers, yes you, help me out. what should i do? i know i have been told by her friends to take a slow and easy, and i have been doing that. but i just cant help but wonder about the bro part. i am just thinking too much. where are my listening buddies when i need them, especially sufi, hidayat and fardly. dudes, you guys can help me the most. damn. i hate this feeling that is building up inside me. the feeling of sorrow, sadness and emo-ism. help anybody? cheers. date: Feb 8, 2009
title: Sun Tzu is pleased to know that we've all read.
time: 10:43 PM
 fardly and i, putting cigarettes in our mouth in the most awkward way. looks hot though. am i right fardly. so my weekends were good, except for today where i practically did almost nothing and just slept my arse off. lets start off with friday shall we. there was a gig going on at far east that evening, but my day was empty. so i decided to head down to singapore polytechnic to meet jo. dragged fardly along too. but he had to drag me all the way to the airport first just to collect his pay, which in the end the pay was actually to be collected the next day. damn it. so headed to sp, and since its been a while i have been there, i realised the whole school is a huge skatepark and a great place to parkour. i am so going to parkour there one day. okay, we went to meet jo and her friends in their classroom, watched them do their project, which i find cool but fucking complicating, went to kfc to eat where we bumpped into teresa, smoke and slack. when the classroom had to be locked, we decided to go for a smoke. thats when shit starts. apparently, one of our friends' boyfriend, or ex, i dont know, has gone haywire. lets call the girl T aites. the boyfriend, or ex, is super over-protective of T, where its a sin if T talks to other guys. i actually kinda lazy to explain what happen. you guys can read fardly's blog though. he detailed on the boyfriend and the shit that went down. so after that i decided to ask them to tag along to the gig at far east and they agreed. fast forward to meeting denyse at orchard then to far east, the gig was kinda alright. it had chairs all around, so we practically had to sit through a gig. valley skies was okay but tacit aria was awesome. their vocalist could really hit the high note. they sound like saosin, but better. check them guys. their single, telepathy, is currently playing on my blog by the way. after the gig, we hang out at taka circle before walking down to esplande area. by this time sufi joined us, denyse, T and another friend had already left. so it was me, jo, fard and sufi, that is till jo's sis came by to pick her up. so it us guys. feeling very artistic, we decided to sketch the bayline from esplanade, and my drawing turned from a building to a stickmen frenzy. oh, we wrote a song too, which is soon to be released after minor adjustments. and the guys wrote me a poem when i went to the gents. i started with the first three lines, had to go to the toilet, came back and found it complete. here it goes, "this story aint the same, it all starts with a different name. the voices within me, resides then decides what i'm to be. step by step i accelerate, to the gents i masturbate. the release leaves me in awe and grin, with a bar of soap and a magazine. my desires my dreams only i can fly, none but me could feel such high. no pain no anger no misery, only pleasure alone accompanies me." what a fucked up poem right. wait till you guys hear the song. do spread it when its released aite. went back around 330am and caught the night rider home. thats the end of friday for me. my saturday is the same old routine for the past few weeks. wake up around 3plus, watch some tv, eat, watch more tv, bathe, get dress, head down to vivo, walk around or slack alone, meet the rest and lastly, make a move to st james powerhouse. that has been the routine for the past few weeks. damn. but yesterday was a speacial occasion. it was to celebrate teresa's birthday. so we drank, to me it wasnt a lot of drinking, but some of the guys were already halfway to cloud nine. but nevertheless, it was a great night as fard and jo did come down, got to see people who has never gotten tipsy before going all high after a few drinks and good company. once again, before the night ends, happy 20th birthday teresa! you are old. so right now i am kinda shag. i didnt even get any sleep when i reached home from clubbing. i was already on my bed when a friend of mine called me up, asking me to play goalkeeper for a match in a hour's time. we lost anyway so i didnt give a damn. i need a job. going to apply for this italian pizza outlet at vivo tomorrow. medical check up in 3 days time. hearing to some stories and listening to their experiences, it makes me want to go the ns more quickly. but i will certainly miss a lot of things. oh wells, it aint end of the world yet. that is all i guess. one last picture. presenting, SUPERMIM!  and jo, I AM NOT A SCENE KID! =pcheers. date: Feb 6, 2009
title: Your Call.
time: 4:59 AM
i am seriously bored. in my room now, alone, as my brother is away for some school camp thingy. kinda miss him. anyway, i found this tagging game that aint stupid. kinda fun to do actually. do at your own will guys, i did. 1. Put your music on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! 4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from. *i wont tag though. just lazy to. --------------- IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park [it does sound right if you can really picture the words correctly] WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? She Shut Her Eyes - Blindside [that aint good right if the girl shut her eyes to my personality] HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Image of the Invisible - Thrice [i do feel i was like invisible to my family today] WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Predictable - Good Charlotte [very predictable] WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? And I Told Them I Invented Times New Roman - Dance Gavin Dance [WTH!?] WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Love The Look, Hate The Lifestyle - Kenotia [isnt that true] WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Wish Me Luck - Best Interest [wishing myself luck often? nah] WHAT IS 2+2? Boyz - M.I.A. [HUH?] WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? The Weatherman Said Overcast - Best Interest [its the weatherman who said it, not me] WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Entombment of a Machine - Job for a Cowboy [what machine?!] WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Leave Out All the Rest - Linkin Park [hahaha. it is my life right] WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? My Hero - Paramore [wonder what powers i will have?] WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Prayer of the Refugee - Rise Against [it will do] WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? Burn It Up - R.Kelly [the dance will be too hot to handle] WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Whoa - Paramore [which was SO my first reaction when i saw her] WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Crises - Alexisonfire [creating crisis maybe?] WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? My Fears Have Become Phobias - As Blood Runs Black [is that really my biggest secret?] WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Give You My All - Eyes Set To Kill [awwwwww] WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? 6 Months - Hey Monday [to national service] WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? Beautiful in Blue - Alesana [too damn beautiful that it makes me cry.] WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? A Boy Brushed Red..Living in Black & White - Underoath [damn contradicting that it makes me laugh. haha] WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? Last Time - Typecast [when when when?] HOW WILL YOU DIE? My Friends Over You - New Found Glory [huh?] WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? Hollywood Holiday - Love Me Butch [COOL!] WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? One Last Breath - Creed [let the lyrics explain it] DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? Whatever You Like - T.I. [up to them huh] WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? Drive - Incubus [these hands are not as steady as you think] IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? Quicksand - Incubus [and make it into slowsand] WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS? The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars [i will so get fired] WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS? Your Call - Secondhand Serenade [what a nice song to end it all] --------------- oh, i just received a letter that stated i have to go for my medical check-up this wednesday, 12 february. that sucked, i dont want to enter early. oh wells. going to treasure my time now. but i am fucking jobless. damn. so anyway, try out the above thingy, its fun seriously. i was laughing my ass off at some of the answers. that is all. cheers. date: Feb 4, 2009
title: homecoming, im coming.
time: 2:19 AM
this is not a proper update, i warn you guys. i just want to upload pictures to tell you what my life has been through ever since i stopped school. it has been gigs, clubbing and slacking at home. at st james powerhouse, where i will be every wednesday and saturday! this was taken during powerhouse 2nd anniversary. great night it was! live n loaded at mediacorp. credits to the person who took this photo of me bodysurfing. episode two of live n loaded, featuring the hosts. a cool effect, taken by my cousin asyraf. and this girl too. her name is jo. sorry if i upload without your permission. hope you dont mind. =)))))cheers. |
