date: Jun 25, 2008
title: looking through syamim's window..
all i can see is the happiness running around me. all the fun, joy and laughter that is spreading nonstop in the world. when will that time come again for me. smiling from ear to ear is what i miss the most, knowing that someone is there for you. heart, body, mind and soul will always be by your side. it has been a while since i truly experience what i cherish the most. but i am afraid now, knowing that the curse of the phrase has not brought any luck for me. knowing that over the months, i have been ditched, left alone or just ignored, for another guy. knowing that it hurts so badly to see them together, but happy as they are happy. my heart is trembling in fear. what if it happens again and will never stop. the friends are there to keep me alive, but the other reason that is keeping me from not giving up is hope. but i am just afraid. just scared...
"and now you come around to me, to see my plainsunset..."
the only two things that is giving me light, redbull and plainsunset playing on my mp3.
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