the gingerbreadman was tasty!

woah. a month long gone. i'm so sorry for not updating. i goes i just have no idea what to blog about. or i was just lazy. mostly the latter.

alright, the past month was weird, in a fun way. i rented a canon 450D for malay cultural group's freshie orientation, and to just try it out. went around taking pictures at chinatown, clarke quay, raffles place, etc. i really want a dslr for my own, badly! the new intake for the cca was alright. and so far the drama and dikir trainings are going good. dikir guys, work harder and you guys will be prepared for this year's school competition. i have no idea whether i can play or not, since i am entering ns in september. oh, for those who didnt know, i am enlisted to civil defence and entering on the 8th of september. awesome right. the truth is, i am excited to enter ns and so cant wait for 8th september. now i guess what mom told me, that not to play with fire, will not come into play when i'm in civil defence.

clubbing in my life has been cut down. kinda getting bored of it already. but i still miss powerhouse though.

i think i am attracted to a girl(duh! cant be a guy right) who is a freshie. she is difficult to talk to, like seriously difficult to talk to, but that makes all of us human right. she is some sort mysterious but sweet. though there is a reason why she is quiet among people, hearing her story really kinda damaged her, which for any other person would feel the same. but i heard a rumour, maybe true, that someone is like kinda asking people to keep hands off of her as he might be going for her. oh wells, just rumours. though it sucks to hear that.

come to think of it, i have been deprived of love for close to one year and six months already. yes, it is awesome to be single, living the life freely and having no strings attached. but after a while, you will realise nothing beats having a close companion who you can share the fun and joy with. i aint desperate to find a love one, that wouldnt be great. but i am entering ns in four months time. i could imagine myself, being single for another two years. woah, i hope i dont turn gay. which i wont! but come to think of it, finding a loved one, and not flings, doesnt take a short time. so four months isnt enough time, especially if she needs me but i am in camp. it aint fair to her, neither it is to me. oh wells, god paved us a road and we are destined to travel on it.

but i really have a big crush on her!

i got a huge told-off from a friend. kinda messed up this thing with him and his family. i feel damn bad and i apologise for everything. but right now i am doing what i always do best. i am running and hiding.

run and hide. i guess that is my strongest, and weakest, trait i have. i can do it so easily, yet it is hard to admit it. i ran and hide when school got to me. i ran and hide when things started to fail. i ran and hide when i screw things up. that is just what i do best. i so hope after national service things will change, for the better.

what a sad post i have. oh wells, syamim is back. oh oh, i signed up for singapore idol. just to do something fun before ns. do support me if i do get through. i aint hoping to go through and all, i only have a goal in mind. i just want to get at least a yes from one of the four judges when i am auditioning. awesome it will be.

cheers.